Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Brynn's LiveJournal:

Sunday, February 20th, 2005
8:49 pm	*i'm watching you disappear but you were never here* i miss peyton. i want my best friend back. i sometimes wonder if allie feels this way too, getting basically dumped by ashlee for peyton. but whatever. i guess i move on. life goes on. la di da. I guess i have Cecilia. not that she's my best friend by any means, but her and jessica are the best i have right now. Weirdest thing ever, Heidi is getting married. I don't get it. She's 16!! but she's getting married this summer, dropping out before her senior year, getting her GED and moving to Germany with her fiance whose in the military or something. Wow. its so crazy! i guess i'm just struggling, i know peyton and ashlee lie to me all the time, and i wish they wouldnt. i need friends. NEW ones. GOOD ones. But i'm in highschool, so i doubt thatll happen anytime soon... ugh. i want a cookie. Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:20 pm	-i lost you. i lost him. i lost them. i lost me- Good Morning. I'm so lazy today, its 12:30 and i've been up for an hour. I hate lazy days sometimes, but i just cant get moving. I really need to exercise because A) itll help me feel better and B) Mexico is in 38 days. I can't go do pilates and yoga today though cause its sunday grrr. so i guess i'll just have to do some cardio on the treadmill. pop in a movie and run, hopefully i can get past like 3 minutes lol. so i guess its pointless for me to be sitting when i should be running huh. Peyton and I were supposed to have our "best friend date night" tonight and wow some how ashlee and allie got involved. funny how that happens. i dont want to go. I know tysen and cael and probably scott will get thrown in, and scott hates me and i'm pretty sure cael and tysen do as well. so i'd rather go out with jessica or maybe stay home and watch the notebook with my mommy. awh the dilemma's of high school. and good lord my parents wont get off my case today, i'm in such a bad mood and they just do not get it :( ugh, not going to be a good day, i can just tell. Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: dashboard confessional - screaming infidelities (Comment on this)
12:55 am	-your all i want but not like this- Well. Its been an interesting weekend to say the least. Today really kind of sucked. After staying up until 3 talking to Ashlee i had to get up at 8, not cool. not cool at all. My mom and i did go get bagels which was fun, cause we havent done something like that forever. I went to my pilates class today, which kicked my butt, but it was so fun and its keeping me in shape while i'm off season, so thats all good, i love to sweat i feel soo much better when i'm done. Anyways, later on my dad and i went and looked at LR3's i like them :) of course not looking for me, for my daddy, i'll keep my car thank you. So right now i really miss having a best friend. Its like I do and I don't. Peyton is just so weird ever since her at Tysen have been dating, and i know its been going on for 6 months now but she just keeps getting stranger, always ditching me for him or ashlee. ugh. whatever. they made it sound like they were all ditching me to go drink tonight so i ended up going to a party at Chase's house. i didnt want to because i didnt know very many people there but i ended up having so much fun. I drug Jessica with me and i even got her having fun :) I think Allie is mad at us cause we stayed longer than we planned and since she wouldnt come with us she wanted to hang out after, but it was 1 when we finally left, so whatever, not my loss, i wasnt the one who orginally planned on getting drunk tonight in the first place. not my thing thanks. I'm really not sure what to do right now either, because as gross as this sounds, i'm throwing up in a cup right now. I thought i had gotten over this, but sometimes when i get stressed out i do it at night and it just helps. i want to stop though but it just feels right. ahh! why are some things so difficult!? i wanna go back to spring hill :( Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: nina gordon- tonight and the rest of my life (Comment on this)